Do you struggle to see yourself as a writer or public speaker?

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I was inspired when I came across this blog post https://notlostbutfound.blog/2019/11/22/if-we-are-honest/. It can be a struggle to see yourself as a writer or being a public speaker at times.

 We think things like:

  • I’m such small potatoes, I’ll never get noticed
  • I’m not sure if I have anything of value to say
  • This seems like just a hobby because I’m not making a profit
  • I’m only doing this because I suffer from pride and I want to be more than I am

Ever been here?

I have.

Unless we believe in what God has called us to do, no one else will ever believe it either.

I think many of us are looking for validation from others before we step out. We’re looking for people to tell us, “you are so well written, you are a writer,” or “you have what it takes to be a public speaker.” Now, there is nothing wrong with looking for confirmation. I’ve been in places in my life where I needed confirmation before I could get that thing to be a resolve for me, and sometimes that’s needed. God will speak to you through a man or woman of God a word of confirmation, so you know without a doubt it’s Him. But you know what? I think many of us know what God has called us to do and we’re still not doing anything about it because we keep entertaining these negative thoughts.  We are not taking every thought captive like the scripture says in 2 Corinthians 10:5— instead we are letting our mind run wild with thoughts of failure.

Every time I think I shouldn’t be doing this God touches someone to send an encouraging comment, I come across an inspiring message or I receive a notification that my stats are booming. Just seven months ago I was  discouraged and felt like, what if this is a waste of my time? I’m putting myself out there and making myself vulnerable, for who? And, for what?  But every time I tried to walk away from it, I would feel a pull and a tug to come back to it, but the discouragement was still there. Then I realized that just because my blog hasn’t flourished in the way I expected it to doesn’t necessarily mean I’m not supposed to be doing it.  I needed to change my perspective. When I “really”  grasped the purpose of  my blog it’s like my blog started to evolve overnight.

I don’t know where you are in life today, but can I ask, is the way you think about yourself holding you back from how God wants to use you?

There are a lot of books out there that tell you to dream what you want and then go after it—I say, pray about where God is calling you. Don’t be afraid or be embarrassed to speak out loud what God has put on your heart. I was afraid for a long time because I know my battles with anxiety, I feel panic scared to speak in public, and even though it’s gotten a little easier I still feel nervous every time I publish a post— it doesn’t sound realistic that I believe God is going to use me to speak at women conferences or women outreaches or that I believe He’s called me to be a teacher of the Word. Internally I have asked, “Lord are you sure about calling me!?!” Yes, I know! I asked an all omniscient God is He sure like He doesn’t know what my issues and insecurities are, like He didn’t already factor that in.

You and I have to start seeing ourselves the way God sees us. And then get equipped! I am thankful for this blog; I see this as my starting point!

Published by: Kim Petitt

As a person living with a disability challenge is part of my life. I struggled with my identity and I recognize that I still have insecurities to face, but that doesn't mean I can't walk in everything God has purposed me to walk in despite my insecurities. Because of the nature of my condition and physical disability, God's grace is evident in my life everyday and I find strength in the word of God that says in Philippians 4:13 "I can do all things through him who gives me power". (CJB).

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8 thoughts on “Do you struggle to see yourself as a writer or public speaker?”

  1. This was what I needed, Kim! Thank you for your wise words. You are a writer, and I’m thankful to have found you. I often struggle with looking for validation because I didn’t get it from my mom in the way I needed it growing up. God is showing me that my ultimate validation is always from Him. He loves me and is the ultimate guide in my writing. Amen!

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    1. I am so glad this encouraged you Amber, to God be the glory! I understand wanting outside validation. Due to insecurities that steamed from how I saw myself as it relates to my physical disability and my avoidant behavior I constantly would look for the affirmation, acceptance and approval of other people. My daily prayer is, “God help me to see myself the way you are me.”

      Thank you for stopping by and encouraging me with your comment, God bless you woman of God! ♥️😁

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  2. We do need to see ourselves as God sees us and take each little step He leads us to take. It’s really hard overcoming our own negative thoughts as well as the fear of what others are thinking about us. Especially when others say hurtful things to try and hold you back. Keep believing what God has placed in your heart and take it one day at a time with Jesus. ❤️

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  3. Hi Kim. It is as if you have read my mind. I was thinking those same thoughts to myself a few hours ago. I was reading a chapter from a book that a blogger wrote. It is excellent writing and I showered him with well deserving compliments. Then I began to ask myself, “Who am I kidding? Who told you that you can write?” Well, God told me and I just have to hold on to that fact. Thank you for this post. God speaks to me through you.

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